The House

Life has definetly had it's ups and downs this past week. From having issues with the little ones passport to actually receiving everything in a reasonable amount of time. I have finally put together a box of things for Savannah (booster seat, clothes, misc toys) so she will have things of her own up there. We have started to decide what we are and are not packing.

I have no idea why life seems to come rushing at me at 1:30 am. But I was in bed watching Savannah sleep for 2 1/2 hours until I decided I would just come put something up. I am excited and scared at the same time. I want to leave, start a new life and leave the complications behind. Leave the pain behind and start new with Savannah. I want to keep her happy and thriving. I am scared because of course I am leaving all my family and friends. I am going to a new place with new people. I want our life to be less complicated. Less anger filled. More productive!

I know there are people who are so excited for us, glad we are starting out fresh and in a new place. And others who are just glad we wont be around anymore. It doesnt bother me, anymore. I am no longer waiting for people to change their minds and come into our lives. It is not worth it for Savannah and I to wait in the wings for someone, to stop our lives for what we want. Savannah is excited, she tells me everyday. She also asks everyday if it's time for our plane ride yet. 8 days. 8 days today.

I will miss you guys. I will miss you all and I do hope that you either write or visit us. The door is always open, even though we wont be so close to the beach. I think people need to do things to grow and learn. I have moved away in my life before Savannah, across the country then across the world. It was a great learning experience. And I learned a lot about myself and others around me. Then again that was when I was 20. Not so long ago but it does seem like a lifetime.

At least we know that we can always come to vacation, since we know the place. I do plan on coming down with Savannah next summer probably June/July to visit. That's less then a year away.

8 days, Eight days. Thats what we have left, a little over a week....
Leanne